Volunteering

Hey! It's the beginning of the month and whats a nice thing to do is to volunteer. I started my first day at the Botanical Gardens. We did Membership Renewal Mail outs. It was a lot of fun. There were about three other volunteers there helping out. I met some of the nicest people. Oh and the staff over there were very thankful that we were there. They have a really neat business office. Every person I met. either in the office or on the grounds were nice.
Then I had a doctors appointment in the afternoon. It was across town. The drive wasn't too bad, just some crazy people on the road.
All in all, I had a pretty good day. I like this new busy feeling.

Wednesday

Hello all. Well I'm on my fourth day to working out. It's going pretty well. I've met my goals everyday
and I have lots more energy. I'm still waiting for this new volunteer job to follow through. I do go on Monday. But after that I just have to see if they will need me. If this turns out to be a job that is
"as needed" then I will find another place to volunteer where I'll be on a schedule.
I have seen two friends that I haven't seen in awhile. So thats been nice. I even went to the park
last weekend and had a good walk. It felt good to be around people again. I've sort of been isolating myself lately.
Nothing else is going on. I hope everyone has a good week.

exercise

Well, I started at the gym this morning. I did a cardio circuit workout that involves eight [ i think ] different machines and a step up where you lift one leg at a time and step up on this block. The machines work your arms, legs, chest, abs and back. Then I rode the bike.
Tomorrow I'll do a 30 minute cardio workout either riding the bike or walking on the treadmill. Then on the third day I'll do what I did today. On the fourth day I'll do the cardio workout and abs. It was really neat, you go in and create your own fitness program month by month. And there's always staff there to show you how to do a machine.
I'm already sore in my knees. I think it will get easier as time goes by. But I'm committed. And I saw other women there that are about my size, so I'm not so self absorbed with the way I look. All I can do is my best. But the key is to keep moving even if I get tired. If I can't do the workout, I should just march in place. I think I can do that...

busy

Well, I've been busy this week. I joined a gym and I found a place to volunteer at. It's the Birmingham Botanical Gardens. I met the volunteer coordinator today and he real nice. I'll volunteer three days a week. I'll be helping with office work and working in the library.
I'll also start back with the Wildlife center in July. So, my schedule will be full. And I'll just schedule my doctors appointments around my other stuff. I plan on going to the gym every week day, so hopefully I'll loose more weight. I am still on the low carb diet my father designed and thats doing good.
I'm not as depressed as I was a few days ago. Hopefully I can keep a positive attitude because that makes things easier. All in all I feel a little better about myself.

difficult times

Hey. Well it's been a few weeks since I blogged again. The title to this blog represents the last two days. Basically I have been hiding behind things that aren't true and now my family knows about it. I feel ashamed of myself. I went to see a therapist this afternoon to "talk" it out. I am going to be going to  see this man from this day on.
I hate lying and now I just have to face it and own it. My reasons for doing this were at that time to protect myself. Ever since I went on disability I have been hiding in my house, only venturing out to run to the grocery store, get gas or run errands. I've lied to my family cause I didn't want them to know that I have been too afraid to live my life.
All the time that this was going on I knew it was wrong, but I just kept doing it. I told my mother the truth today and she was very angry. Which she should act that way. I don't blame her. And my sister knows about it too. My father was being told tonight, which I didn't hear from him. He's gonna be disgusted, furious and sad that I have been lying all this time.
I guess I don't blame them for feeling like they can't trust me anymore. I just have to keep telling myself that it's going to be OK. I have to from this point on be honest and trustworthy.
After a few days, all of this will sink in with everyone and hopefully I will have their forgiveness.

Hello!

I know, I know.. It's been a long time again since I checked in.
I've been dealing with a lot of pain lately. About a month ago I fell down a flight of stairs landing on my left side. So naturally my left arm, hip and knee were affected. My arm was the first to bother me, but that went away in about two weeks time. Now, I've had a time with my hip. So, I've been taking Tylonal and Advil around the clock. It's made my stomach hurt.
On this past Thursday, I woke up to shooting pain down my leg from my hip. I finally went to see a doctor about this. I had my left side xrayed. There were no breaks anywhere just tissue damage.
At least I had it checked out.
So, I'm back to taking Advil. I've pulled muscles from my hip down to my leg and knee.
If I take baby steps it doesn't hurt as much. The doctor told me that it can be anywhere from a couple of weeks to a couple of months before I start feeling better.
Woopie!

Another blog

Hey there! I know it's been awhile since I wrote. Time just gets away from me. I've been doing my spring cleaning all day. I covered my face with a bandana and swept off my pollen filled porch. That was a job within it's self.
And for the last few hours I have been exchanging my winter clothes over to summer clothes. It sounds easy, but my closet is so small I have to literally take everything out of it to get to my cedar chest where all of my clothes are stored. And Oh, I have the many boxes stacked high around the chest, that my bedroom now looks like a rummage sale.
I hate doing this, but I have too. It's just been too hot to wear long sleeves anymore.
Next, I have to dust. My hardwood floors are littered with dust balls. And if you look under my furniture, it's a disaster with dust. Oh and I can't forget to change the filter in my AC. I just turned it on this past week. I have a feeling that we are going to have a hot summer.
Oh and that pollen all over my car. The only relief I get from that is when it rains. We're not allowed to get the hose and hose down our cars in the parking lot. It's a shame too. But the management is worried about wasting too much water. It also could be because our water bills are going to increase and that means a higher association fee.
What else...
I'm still volunteering and trying to stay busy. Still on my weight program. Still exercising. So all in all everything is still the same.
I do have to say that I saw the cutest guy at the post office the other day. My "desires" in a man have changed. I'm now noticing guys with salt and pepper gray hair. If he's got kids, thats OK. Of course he has to have teeth. That's funny. It makes me think of news channels interviewing folks on TV. It always seems that the interview people with no teeth. How could people not take care of their teeth? And not brushing their teeth everyday? Yuk!!!!
What got me off on that?
Well, I better get back to my chores. Have a great weekend...